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Post by FF7 on May 20, 2007 5:03:04 GMT -5
I just thought I would write down what I am feeling right now. I feel as though People are gradually drifting away from me, I do not know why, and I just do not know how, if I did I would know how to prevent it. I feel as though all my Internet Friend do not care or are even bothered about staying in Contact with me. No one ever bothers to stay with me at Roads End. Many People have not bothered Emailing me, asking me how I am or even being their for me or a shoulder to cry on when things are going down in my life. I would like to thank Sabrina because she has been there for me always. Though I feel as though she is drifting away too, like she cannot be bothered with me anymore. I am just a stupid British Girl who does not have a life. It's true and I believe that. I do not believe in myself anymore. I have no reason too, how people make fun of how skinny I am just because of their Weight Problem, and how Boys seem to treat me terribly, how People treat me as though I am stupid but I tend to speak from the Heart as I am doing it now. Someone hurt me, a friend I thought I could trust lied to me, I was hurt by someone I love and now I feel as though my Friends are not actually my friends at all. Like they use me. But there you go, no one is bothering in contacting me or even bother staying with me. It's just Hi and Goodbye. But that is their choice. I just want to say that I'm not bothering with those People anymore and I do not care. No one would care if I died. No one would care about a thing. So there you go. Maybe one day I'll leave this Site and find out who I am. And no one will be there to help me on my way. I'm in this Game alone.
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Post by Sabrina on May 20, 2007 21:20:06 GMT -5
Oh Hannah, I'm sorry! You're not losing me, I swear. It's just that I've been going on vacation a lot because my cousin is really sick, and then when I got home my computer died. In between all that, I've been trying to keep up with my homework. I'm sorry if you feel like I'm leaving you. I mean, I even bought FF7 for the PS2 because you like it so much so I thought I would too. You're not a stupid British Girl, you're an amazingly wonderful absolutely irreplaceable friend. I'll always be here for you Hannah. I don't care how much you weight, in fact, one of my best american friends is 15 years old and only ways 92 pounds. I really don't care. I also think it admirable that you're able to speak from your heart. A lot of people can't do that, they lock it up and never really tell people what they're thinking how they feel. I'm sorry if your friend hurt you, she shouldn't have done that. People are cruel sometimes. Oh Hannah, I'd be very upset if you died. I really would, I'm not lying to you. In fact, I'd find a way to get to England so I could meet your family and lay flower on your grave after the funeral. You are my good friend and you are very dear to my heart. You really are. You're the only internet friend that I've ever gotten this close to, and I don't want to lose you now. You're not alone, I swear, I'm here. I might be a billion miles away, but if you want I'll give you my phone number and we can call sometimes. I don't care what time it is either, if you need me, I'll be here.
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and just so you know, I typed each one of those out individually. No copy, no paste. *heart attacks you!*
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Post by FF7 on May 21, 2007 14:13:23 GMT -5
I understand. My Computer is breaking up so we are getting our new one this Week hopefully. So it will be much quicker and will not freeze or even switch off from time to time. I really hope your Cousin does get better. My poor little Sister Kate passed out this morning at 6 am. She had started her very first Period and I helped her and made sure she knew what to do. I left her and she panicked and told my Parents that she could see nothing so my Father ran upstairs along with my Mum and Kate went Pale, her lips went Blue, her body went stiff and her eyes were wide. She started falling back into the Bath and my Mum started panicking which made me panick myself. I ran upstairs as my Dad told Kate what to do and she eventually came round. But when I saw the state she was in, I began to Black Out and I started heating up and getting really sweaty. I ran out the House in case I was going to faint and wanted to be out in the cold. I went on my PaperRound and when I got back, there was a Paramedic with Kate. It shocked me so much that I felt Sick at School and upset so I went home. I have slept for hours. I feel terrible. Did you really buy FF7. I am amazed. It is a really good game. You will get attached to it. I promise you. If you come to love it, you will be in luck as there is a Movie too and another Game based upon one of the Characters. I have played it since I was 7 Years Old. I am attached to it. It is my life. I wish I could live in their World. I hate this one. No one excepts me at all. Thankyou, I do tell People how I feel, I tell everything from the Soul. It is like I am an open Book. I am really flattered and loved by your truthfulness. Thankyou. I would do the same. I am really touched, truly. Thankyou so much. I am glad you are here for me, it is amazing how close we are, you are here for me more than my other friends even at School. Thankyou. *Hug*
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Thankyou, I have done the same. *Hearts attacks you back.* And here is a Random Kittie. =^^=
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Post by Sabrina on May 22, 2007 21:40:52 GMT -5
Oh, I hope your computer gets fixed. A slow computer is one of the worst things in the world to have. Thank you. Oh wow, I hope your sister is ok. I didn't know your period could do that to you....wow. Do you know what happened? I've never heard of someone passing out because they got their period. Is her blood sugar often low or something? I mean wow...I really hope she's ok. Tell her I said to get better, will yeah? I hope you're ok too. I know how things like that can rattle you. I'm so sorry. Yes, I really bought FF7. I'm having a good time with it, it's so awesome. I'm really glad I got it. I just wish I had more time to play. You're welcome Hannah. I'm glad I could be here for you. You really are very dear to me, no lies. Yes, it is amazing. I too feel closer to you than I do my school friends. I really do. I promise, one day I'll come to England and visit you. I will.
aw, such a cute kitty. <3
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Post by FF7 on May 23, 2007 13:11:35 GMT -5
I know what you mean. But no worries, I am getting a new Computer. I opened a Parcel and got excited as I thought it was the Mouse, but it was actually the Modem to get onto the Internet. I felt so stupid. My Sister laughed at me, I must have Blonde Genes. No offence to Blondes. Well the Paramedic said her Sugar levels were fine, she went for a Blood Test to see if she is an E-Mic. I do not think she is though. I will tell her, do not worry. I am thankyou, I was really stunned and I almost passed out myself. I felt rather annoyed today, because as you know I feel as though no one would pay any attention to me. I talked to my friend Toby and he just ignored me, then he said I was thick and that made me cry. Silly I know but I was having a bad day and I have had enough of People ignoring me, and changing their Moods like the Wind itself. So I spoke to no one except my friend who I hang around with, and of course Alice and some other People that actually listened to me. I hope you enjoy the Game then. You will do. Aw thankyou so much!!!!! *Hugs.* *Kissie.*
Thankyou!
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Post by Sabrina on May 23, 2007 22:01:51 GMT -5
That's awesome! I got so exited when we got our new computer. It ran so fast, it was amazing. I felt like a little kid at Christmas time. Lol, that's ok. My friends all say I have blood roots. I do some of the most stupid things. Oh, my mom was an E-mic. She had to eat chicken liver and take vitamin pills. Have your sister take vitamin pills with iron in them, it'll make her feel better. That's what my mom had to do. Thank you, and you're welcome. Aw, I'm sorry. I'm glad you did not pass out though. I'm sorry Hannah, that was wrong of him to say that. I don't think that of you in any way. Guys can be real a**es sometimes. Don't feel too bad though, I've had a bad day today too. I think it's just a bad day for everyone. See, that's why you have Alice and the rest of your friends, to make you feel better. I am enjoying the game, thanks. I love it very much. hehe, you're welcome very much! *hugs and kissies back*
You're welcome! Can you see the little emo kid in this?... (||0\\\\)
(it's supposed to be the head with the one eye and the hair hanging over the other eye)
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Post by FF7 on May 24, 2007 13:05:10 GMT -5
Thankyou Sabrina. My Dad says ours should be very fast indeed which is good as this one pauses and freezes. We're having it properly set up on Tuesday. I cannot wait. Thankyou for the advice, I shall tell her. I had to take Iron Tablets once. I wasn't getting enough of it so my Mum brought me some, so she can have mine. Your welcome. I know. He tried to cheer me up, and he gave me a HobNob (Biscuit) to help but I was too upset. He made me happy today though as he spoke to me and tried to butter me up. He is really good at impressions so he did impressions of The Muppets which made me happy. He felt really bad for what he said and told me he did not mean it. I know, Alice, You and other People make me so happy. I will be sad when Alice leaves for College. Your welcome!
(Oh wow! Yes I can see it!) :0 ) <----- Heh Heh.
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Post by Sabrina on May 29, 2007 20:56:43 GMT -5
That's awesome. A fast computer will definitely spoil you. Hehe. You're welcome, anything I can do to help. Aw, that is so cute. See, he didn't mean to hurt you. I think it's just a guy thing where they just can't help being jerks. i'm glad I could make you happy. That is one of my missions in life, to spread the love. <3 Wow, college? She's older than you then I take it?
(yay! some of my friends couldn't see it )
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Post by FF7 on May 30, 2007 4:40:13 GMT -5
It is the one I am using now, and thankyou. I think Guys are jerks all together, like my Love, he texted me after he treated me like rubbish, well he can f**k off. I don't like him. I do not care one inch about him. No, I am older than her.
(Gd.)
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Post by Sabrina on May 31, 2007 21:27:15 GMT -5
Exactly, that's like my best friend ( who's a guy) he's really mean to me. I mean, I honestly don't understand why I'm his friend sometimes. He will know I'm having a bad day and sit there and pester me until I feel like crying. It's really unfair, why are guys so mean? Oh, it sounded like she was older, I'm sorry.
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Post by FF7 on Jun 1, 2007 2:53:15 GMT -5
That is terrible. You always find Friends like that. When I was at Secondary School, I hung around with my friend who I hang with at the School I am now, and Alice, Nikki and there was this Girl Leah. Honestly Leah used to be so two-faced. She would treat me badly, leave me out and she would get Alice against me. She once organised to go Cinema with us all, and they all went and left me standing at the Bus Stop, that was how awful she was. But now, years on, everything has changed in a good way. Alice and Nikki hang around, they like to call for me once in a while, and Leah is around different People, which is good says us all as she has started Stealing. Alice says she does not care what she does anymore, she doesn't go to School and Nikki thinks that if Leah had still had Alice round her little finger, she would of got her stealing too, which is wrong. I am glad everything is the way it is now, much simpler. So there you go, a bit of bad friend history but you get where I am coming from. It's ok, Alice asked me yesterday!
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Post by Sabrina on Jun 3, 2007 19:35:04 GMT -5
Wow, I hate people like that. That reminds me a lot of my ex best friend. She dating my best guy friend and treated him horribly. She was always yelling at him and she just used him for school dances and whatnot. He was so upset, he used to call me crying, but he wouldn't leave her because he was a gentlemen. She stayed with him forever and then finally she broke up with him because he had a band competition and couldn't go to homecoming dance. She was so mean to him, and when I finally said something to her she b****ed me out so we no longer talk. It's kinda sad really, but it's ok, I've got better friends. And that's good! I hope she's doing better.
btw, how's your sister?
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Post by FF7 on Jun 4, 2007 2:46:09 GMT -5
That is terrible. I think she just wanted, in my view, just someone to be with her so she could show off that she had a Boyfriend. I would not care about Dances to be honest, if my Boyfriend was too busy to go I would not mind at all. Wow, and a Gentleman, you don't get Boys like that everyday, if I was her I would of considered herself lucky. What a complete Idiot, and it is a good thing you said something to her, she deserves it. It is great you have better friends and Alice looks like she is getting much better thankyou.
Oh she is fine thankyou. She had Blood Tests and she is not an E-Mic so she should be fine. She is all bouncy and naughty like she usually is, so that shows a good improvement.
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Post by Sabrina on Jun 4, 2007 20:21:17 GMT -5
You are completely right. All she wanted was to show off that she had a boyfriend. She is so self-centered. Yes, she should have considered herself lucky, he was so kind to her even though she treated him like crap. That's good to hear that she's doing better.
Wow, that's good. Lol, yeah, she sounds much better to me. ^^
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Post by FF7 on Jun 5, 2007 10:24:41 GMT -5
I know. Oh People like that really annoy me. They really get to me People like that do, oh well, as long as I am not like it, I am all right.
Yes, but I think she is an Accidental Prone. She came back from School crying her eyes out because she hurt her foot, and yet she did not tell the Teacher. How stupid was that? She got really frustrated, she was like "I need F-ing Crutches!" My Mum and I could not help but laugh when she said that, but her foot should be fine now. She said that her foot felt better this Morning and that she wanted to go School. She came back with Chocolate Chip Cookies!
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